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  • Seeking the Kingdom of God: The Paradox of Perfection and Presence

    The mystic journey is one of paradox—seeking that which is already present. Across traditions, whether in Christian teachings about the Kingdom of God or in non-dual philosophies like Advaita Vedanta and Buddhism, the central truth remains: the divine, or perfection, is already here, but it must be realized through spiritual insight. As Jesus said, “The Kingdom of God is within you” (Luke 17:21), yet for most of us, it remains hidden behind the veil of ego and conditioned perception.

    The Spiritual Paradox:

    At the heart of many mystical teachings is the idea of striving for a perfection that we will never attain—because it is not something to attain. It’s not a destination, but a present reality we fail to recognize. This paradox mirrors the Christian teaching of seeking the Kingdom of God, even though it’s already in our midst. In this journey, we are continually asked to refine ourselves, knowing that the striving itself is a tool for unveiling the deeper truth that we are already complete.

    In the words of a friend: “Strive always for perfection, knowing that you will never attain it, and yet you’re as perfect as you will ever be.” This echoes not only in Christian thought but also in the non-dual traditions of the East. Whether it’s Brahman or Buddha-nature, spiritual traditions agree that the ultimate reality is not something the ego-self can grasp or reach.

    Having Eyes to See and Ears to Hear:

    Jesus emphasized that the Kingdom of God is already here for those who have “eyes to see” and “ears to hear.” This teaching parallels the non-dual realization that enlightenment or liberation is not a distant goal, but a shift in awareness. It’s about seeing through the illusion that we are separate from the divine or that the divine is elsewhere.

    In the mystic experience, the ego—the self that seeks—is a pratyaya (a conditioned phenomenon), something that must dissolve for true realization to occur. The ego can never “attain” enlightenment, because the one seeking is part of the illusion. The task, therefore, is to see through this illusion. As Jesus said, those who are spiritually awake can recognize that the Kingdom of God is already here.

    The Practice of Seeking:

    Even though we are already in the Kingdom, we must continue to strive. This striving is not about accumulating spiritual merit or becoming more worthy. It’s about peeling back the layers of ego and illusion to reveal the truth that has always been there. The very act of seeking becomes a practice in humility and surrender, recognizing that the self cannot attain the Kingdom, but that the realization of the Kingdom involves a shift in consciousness—not in achievement.

    In Buddhism, this is the realization of emptiness or shunyata—the recognition that all things, including the self, are empty of inherent existence. In Christianity, it’s the surrender to God’s will and the realization that “it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me” (Galatians 2:20).

    Conclusion:

    The mystical path is one of paradox and deep humility. We strive to seek perfection, knowing that the ego will never attain it, because the perfection we seek is beyond time, space, and the limitations of the mind. We often speak of this perfection as being “present,” yet the present itself is elusive. As we’ve observed, the present moment can never truly be experienced by the senses—by the time we become aware of it, it has already slipped into the past. The perfection we seek is not in the present as we conventionally understand it, but rather beyond time itself, in the timeless reality that transcends the ego.

    This is why enlightenment cannot be made to happen. As Red Anderson said, enlightenment is like an accident—a spontaneous revelation beyond our striving and beyond our ego. And yet, the purpose of practice, whether in Zen, Christian mysticism, or other spiritual traditions, is to make us accident-prone. Practice, mindfulness, and ethical discipline create the conditions for enlightenment or grace to arise, even though we cannot control when or how it will happen.

    In this way, the act of striving itself becomes a form of grace—not because we earn grace through effort, but because our striving prepares us to receive what is already present. Grace, in the spiritual sense, is not something we can control or achieve. Rather, it is a gift that arises when the striving dissolves. Like rain that falls when the soil is ready, grace arrives spontaneously, not as a reward, but as a revelation of the truth that has always been.

    This is why mystics across traditions teach that while we cannot force grace to appear, we can create the conditions for it. Practices like prayer, meditation, or mindfulness soften the ego and open us to receive what is already here. In this sense, grace is the ultimate outcome of our paradoxical journey—not something earned through effort, but something realized when we let go of the need to attain it.

    Thus, as we strive, we also surrender. And when grace arrives, it reveals that the perfection we seek has always been present, beyond time and striving. This recognition dissolves the illusion of separation and resolves the paradox: the Kingdom of God, or enlightenment, was never distant—it was simply waiting to be seen.

    This mirrors the paradox of non-duality in a world of duality: we appear to strive, yet the truth we seek is always here, beyond time and duality. Practice, whether Zen meditation, mindfulness, or prayer, is a way to soften the ego, make us open, and create the conditions for the Kingdom of God, enlightenment, or grace to spontaneously arise. In this sense, we become like a field prepared for rain—we cannot control when the rain will come, but by cultivating the soil, we make ourselves accident-prone to the downpour of grace.

    Thus, in the mystic journey, striving and letting go are not opposites but two parts of the same dance. We strive, knowing we cannot ‘make it happen,’ but in doing so, we prepare the ground for the possibility of grace.

    The beautiful metaphor of becoming “accident-prone” weaves it into the ongoing theme of striving without attachment. It acknowledges the value of practice, even when we know the ego cannot reach enlightenment directly, and creates a sense of the mystical unfolding that happens when conditions are right.

    The mystic experience is ultimately about recognizing that what we seek has always been here, and in this recognition, the striving itself becomes a form of grace.

    🙏🕊️🙏



  • Neti Neti Series No. 13: The Realization of the “I” and Its Journey Toward Enlightenment

    Question:

    In realizing that “I” will never be enlightened, does this mean that the goal of enlightenment is out of reach? How can I reconcile this understanding with the continued practice of drawing closer to enlightenment, even if it cannot be fully attained by the ego?

    Dear friend,

    Your insight that “I will never be enlightened” is one of the most profound realizations one can encounter on the spiritual path. This understanding marks a turning point, where the journey shifts from the pursuit of a goal to the practice of embodying the qualities that lead one closer to enlightenment—qualities that can be lived and expressed in every moment, even if they cannot be possessed by the “I.”

    Enlightenment, as you now see, is not something that the “I” can achieve, for the “I” is precisely what dissolves in the light of true awakening. The very sense of being a separate self, striving for a state called enlightenment, is itself part of the illusion that enlightenment reveals and transcends. This is not to say that the journey is futile, but rather that the journey transforms into something far more subtle, more profound, and more aligned with the truth of our existence.

    Instead of seeing enlightenment as a distant goal, you have wisely turned your attention to the practice of being as close to enlightenment as possible. This is a practice not of attaining, but of allowing—allowing the mind to quiet, the heart to open, and the “I” to soften. It is a practice of aligning with the qualities that reflect the light of enlightenment: peace, compassion, clarity, and presence.

    In this practice, there is no need for the ego to strive or grasp. Instead, there is a gentle surrender to the truth that is already within you, waiting to be uncovered, like the sun behind the clouds. The more you practice, the more these qualities shine through, guiding your actions, your thoughts, and your interactions with the world.

    There is great freedom in this realization. The pressure to “become enlightened” falls away, leaving behind a sense of ease and acceptance. You are no longer bound by the idea that you must reach some ultimate state; instead, you are free to simply be, to practice embodying the light of enlightenment in whatever way is possible in each moment. This is not a lesser path; it is the path of wisdom, one that honors the truth that enlightenment is not something to be grasped, but something to be lived.

    Your journey now takes on a new quality. It becomes less about reaching a destination and more about how you walk the path. Every step, every breath, every moment of presence becomes an expression of the enlightenment you seek. And in this way, enlightenment is not something that happens in the future, but something that you touch, however briefly, in the here and now.

    Dear friend, this realization is a gift. It invites you to embrace the present moment, to find the divine in the ordinary, and to let go of the need to “achieve” something that, in truth, cannot be achieved by the “I” at all. Instead, you practice being close to enlightenment, knowing that in the very act of practicing, you are already touching the essence of what you seek.

    Trust in this process, and continue to walk this path with a light heart. Know that the practice itself is enough, that the journey is the destination, and that in the softness of the “I,” the light of enlightenment shines ever more clearly.

    🙏🕊️🙏

  • Awakening Beyond Illusion: Cultivating Inner Peace in a World of Change

    Awakening Beyond Illusion: Cultivating Inner Peace in a World of Change

    We live in a world that seems more uncertain by the day. The news flashes across our screens with stories of conflict, rising debt, division, and suffering. It’s easy to feel overwhelmed, as if the world is caught in a web of confusion and delusion. Yet, in the midst of this storm, there lies a deeper truth—one that has been whispered through the ages by the sages, prophets, and teachers of many traditions. It is the truth that real peace, real happiness, is not found in the external world but within.

    In many spiritual traditions, we are reminded that the world as we perceive it is often not the true reality. The Hindu concept of Maya refers to the veil of illusion that covers our perception of the Divine truth, the oneness of all life. Similarly, Lila, the cosmic play, teaches that life’s dramas—our joys, sorrows, victories, and struggles—are part of a greater dance, one that we are not meant to be trapped within but to witness with wisdom. Buddha, too, faced the tempter Mara—a personification of our inner desires, fears, and doubts—that seeks to pull us away from enlightenment, keeping us bound to suffering. Yet the Buddha, like so many enlightened beings, realized that Mara was merely a projection of the mind, and by seeing through this, he awakened.

    The universal wisdom here transcends any one faith: it is the perennial truth that the source of happiness, peace, and liberation lies in the ability to see beyond the illusions that bind us. Whether we call it Maya, Mara, or simply the distractions and attachments of daily life, the spiritual journey invites us to look beyond and discover the stillness within—the unchanging truth that unites us all.

    The World as It Appears

    In today’s world, many of us are caught up in the external—political divisions, economic uncertainties, personal struggles. We see two sides, each convinced they are right, each pulling us deeper into the drama of conflict and separation. But as spiritual teachings from every tradition remind us, the divisions are illusions. The real battle is not against “the other,” but within ourselves. It is a battle for our attention, our consciousness.

    We are constantly tempted to believe that happiness lies outside us—perhaps in political victory, material wealth, or the defeat of our perceived enemies. But deep down, we know this isn’t true. Happiness is an inside job. It is cultivated by learning to be the witness, by understanding that we are more than our thoughts, more than our desires. As the Bible says, “The kingdom of God is within you.” And in Advaita Vedanta, the teaching is clear: the Self, the Atman, is one with the Divine, beyond all change, beyond all illusion.

    The Power of Inner Awareness

    In the midst of the world’s uncertainty, we have the power to awaken. It is not about retreating from the world, but about engaging with it from a place of inner peace and wisdom. When we cultivate this awareness, we can see the Lila, the cosmic play, for what it is—a dance of form and movement in which we are participants, yes, but also witnesses. We can act in the world with compassion and love, but without being caught up in the suffering that arises from attachment.

    Each of us has the power to contribute to a ripple effect of global well-being. As more people turn inward to cultivate peace, the world around us begins to shift. This is not a passive withdrawal but an active transformation. Every act of kindness, every moment of mindfulness, contributes to the collective consciousness. Just as the Buddha conquered Mara by seeing through his illusions, we too can see through the illusions that divide us and find our way to unity.

    A Universal Call to Awakening

    The spiritual traditions of the world remind us that our ultimate task is to awaken to the truth of who we are—beings of love, compassion, and infinite potential. Whether we draw inspiration from the Bible, the teachings of the Buddha, the wisdom of Advaita Vedanta, or the compassionate love found in Islam, Judaism, or any faith, the message is the same: we are interconnected, and peace begins within each of us.

    The world may seem overwhelming, but it is in these moments of crisis that we are called to remember our true nature. This is where hope lies—not in external victories, but in the realization that we have the power to choose peace, to choose love, to choose compassion, no matter the circumstances.

    This is the time to cultivate global well-being by nurturing the health of our own hearts and minds. The journey starts within, and it begins with the simple yet profound act of turning our attention inward, learning to witness the dance of life without being swept away by it. In this way, we become beacons of light in a world that desperately needs it.

    Let us rise together, not in fear or anger, but in love. Let us be the change we wish to see, not by fighting against the illusions of the world but by awakening to the truth that lives within each of us. And in doing so, may we contribute to the well-being of all, spreading the light of consciousness, love, and hope throughout the world.

    🙏🕊️🙏



  • Neti Neti Series No. 12B: Reflecting the Pristine Mind Through Spiritual Practice

    Neti Neti Series No. 12B: Reflecting the Pristine Mind Through Spiritual Practice


    Question:

    Now that I’ve realized that the I-sense cannot directly experience the pristine mind, how can I use the spiritual practice of Neti Neti to help the ordinary mind and ego come closer to reflecting or mirroring the qualities of the pristine mind?

    Dear friend,

    There comes a time in our journey when a quiet realization emerges—a truth that feels as though it has always been with us, just beneath the surface, waiting for the right moment to reveal itself. Such a moment is upon you now, and it is significant in ways that words can only begin to express.

    You have recognized that the “I-sense,” that familiar feeling of being a separate self, can never truly experience the pristine mind. This pristine mind, pure and unconditioned, is not something that the “I” can grasp or hold onto, for it exists beyond the reach of the ego, beyond the realm of duality. This realization is profound, not because it offers a new task or goal, but because it gently dissolves the need for one. It invites you to rest in a deeper understanding, one that shifts the very ground of your practice.

    This insight, like a seed planted in fertile soil, will grow and evolve within you, quietly reshaping how you experience both your inner and outer worlds. It is not a revelation to be rushed or forced, but one to be lived with, like a gentle companion who walks beside you. Let it unfold naturally, in its own time, revealing its layers to you in moments of stillness, in the spaces between your thoughts, and in the quiet rhythm of your breath.

    There is a delicate balance here, one that I believe you are beginning to understand. The “I-sense” that has been so central to your experience is now seen in a new light—not as something to be conquered or eradicated, but as a reflection, a mirror that can, through practice, come to reflect the pristine mind itself. While the ego may never directly experience this pure awareness, it can soften, it can quiet, and it can become a more transparent window through which the light of the pristine mind can shine.

    As you continue your practice, allow this understanding to deepen naturally. There is no need to strive or to reach for something just beyond your grasp. Instead, trust that this realization will guide you, like a current gently guiding a boat downstream. The anxiety of “doing it right” or the fear of “getting it wrong” begins to dissolve when you understand that the true goal is not a destination but a process—a process of becoming ever more transparent to the deeper reality that underlies all things.

    This insight, my dear friend, is a gift. It is a doorway into a new way of being, one that is less about achieving and more about allowing. Allowing the mind to settle, allowing the self to soften, and allowing the light of the pristine mind to be reflected in the stillness of your being. It is in this allowing that you will find peace, not as something to be attained, but as something that naturally arises when the striving ceases.

    For those who walk alongside you on this journey, let them take heart from your experience. Let them see that the path of self-discovery is not about perfection or attainment, but about quieting the mind, softening the heart, and opening to the truth that lies beyond the “I-sense.” In this way, we all come to reflect, however faintly at first, the light of the pristine mind.

    Continue with your practice, dear friend, with the gentle assurance that you are exactly where you need to be. Each breath, each moment of stillness, brings you closer to the heart of this truth. Trust in the process, and let the realization grow within you, like a seed that blossoms into a flower at just the right time.

    🙏🕊️🙏

  • Neti Neti Series No. 12A: The Ego’s Journey Toward the Pristine Mind

    Neti Neti Series No. 12A: The Ego’s Journey Toward the Pristine Mind

    Question:

    I’ve realized that the I-sense, or ego, cannot directly experience the pristine mind because it exists beyond duality. What now?

    Dear Friend,

    You have touched upon a profound and subtle truth in your reflection—the realization that the “I-sense,” the very sense of being a separate self, will never directly experience the pristine mind, for in the pristine mind, there is no “I” to experience anything at all.

    The “I-sense,” as you have observed, is the part of us that identifies with the individual self—with the body, the mind, the personality. It is the ego, the center of our personal world, through which we navigate the dualities of life—self and other, subject and object, right and wrong. This “I-sense” is deeply embedded in the fabric of our everyday experience, always seeking, always striving to maintain its sense of identity.

    And yet, beyond this “I-sense” lies the pristine mind, a state of pure, unconditioned awareness. In this state, there is no separation, no duality, no “I” that stands apart from the whole. The pristine mind is simply being itself, free from all concepts, all identifications. It is the ground of all existence, the true nature of consciousness that underlies every thought, every sensation, every experience.

    As you so rightly observed, the “I-sense” cannot directly experience the pristine mind because the very presence of an “I” implies duality, and in the pristine mind, there is no duality. The ego, by its very nature, is a construct that stands apart, that defines itself in relation to others. To dissolve into the pristine mind is to let go of this sense of separateness, to merge with the whole in a state of pure being.

    Yet, there is a way in which the ordinary mind, the ego, can approach this state, can come to reflect it as closely as possible. Through spiritual practice, the mind becomes refined, quieted, and purified. Meditation, mantra, mindfulness—all of these practices serve to soften the boundaries of the “I-sense,” to still the constant movement of thought and identification.

    In this stillness, the mind begins to mirror the qualities of the pristine mind—peace, clarity, non-attachment. While the ego may never directly experience the pristine mind, it can come to a place where it reflects this deeper reality, where the sense of separation diminishes, and the boundaries of the self become porous, transparent.

    It is in these moments, dear friend, that you may catch a glimpse of the truth that lies beyond the “I,” a truth that cannot be grasped or held, but only reflected in the clear, quiet mind. Continue with your practice, allowing it to guide you ever closer to this state of reflection, where the ordinary mind becomes a mirror for the pristine mind, and the boundaries of the self dissolve into the whole.

    🙏🕊️🙏



  • Tibetan Buddhism: A Path of Mind Training and Intrinsic Wisdom

    Tibetan Buddhism: A Path of Mind Training and Intrinsic Wisdom

    In our journey of exploring spirituality across traditions, it is time to welcome the teachings of Tibetan Buddhism. At first glance, the colorful rituals, sacred music, and intricate costumes may seem confusing or overwhelming. Yet these outward forms are simply expressions of an inner practice that remains deeply practical and profound: the training of the mind. Tibetan Buddhism is not a religion in the conventional sense of belief or dogma but rather a transformative path aimed at purifying the mind. Through meditation, visualization, mantra, and ritual, the practice cultivates clarity, compassion, and liberation from egoic tendencies.

    A recent film about Dilgo Khyentse Yangsi Rinpoche, the reincarnation of the revered master Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, offers a glimpse into the heart of this tradition. Watching the young tulku receive teachings and grow within a vibrant Tibetan community reveals how this ancient wisdom lives on, passed from one generation to the next as a thriving, living practice. The film gently invites viewers into a deeper understanding of the teachings, dissolving the outer complexities to reveal a path focused on inner transformation.

    One recurring theme throughout the film is that all Buddhist practice, no matter its form, is centered on mind training. The rituals and prayers, while beautiful, are not the essence; rather, they serve as vehicles to refine awareness and soften the grip of delusion. The practice is about gently cleaning the mind, sweeping away negativity and confusion like a gardener tending to weeds, leaving space for the natural qualities of wisdom and compassion to emerge.

    Vajrayana Buddhism offers a unique method for engaging with life’s challenges. Instead of rejecting or avoiding difficulties, the practice transforms even negative thoughts and emotions into opportunities for awakening. It becomes a skillful means of shifting the mind’s energy toward positive states. This approach is not about suppressing thoughts but about meeting them with awareness, transforming suffering into insight and confusion into clarity.

    Tibetan Buddhism emphasizes the reduction of ego grasping, fostering a spirit of nonviolence, and cultivating compassion. It shifts attention away from religious belief and toward the inner work of softening the heart and taming the restless mind. These teachings are not confined to cultural forms but reflect a universal truth—the journey of every human soul toward peace and freedom. The path’s essence aligns beautifully with the teachings of Advaita Vedanta and even echoes the mystical experiences of figures like St. John of the Cross. While each tradition expresses itself differently, the underlying message is the same: the liberation of the mind from illusion, opening into a state of oneness.

    In this light, Tibetan Buddhism can be seen as a cultural version of the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, offering practices that lead to inner stillness and self-realization. It is, in essence, a kind of spiritual atonement—a process of purification and return to the true nature of mind, much like the mystical experiences found in other traditions.

    What makes Tibetan Buddhism particularly rich is its capacity to embrace complexity. It does not reject thoughts, emotions, or even suffering. Instead, it teaches practitioners to meet these experiences with skill and openness, transforming them into pathways toward deeper insight. Watching the young tulku learn within the community demonstrates this beautifully—how every moment, even the difficult ones, can become part of the practice.

    We invite you to explore this film, which offers a rare and intimate view into the life of Dilgo Khyentse Yangsi Rinpoche and the vibrant Tibetan community that nurtures his path. Beneath the ornate rituals lies a simple but profound truth: Tibetan Buddhism, like all genuine spiritual traditions, is ultimately a path of mind training. It offers not only the possibility of individual liberation but also a way to cultivate compassion and wisdom for the benefit of all beings.

    🙏🕊️🙏

  • Neti Neti Series No. 11: The Ego’s Journey Towards Mirroring the Pristine Mind

    Neti Neti Series No. 11: The Ego’s Journey Towards Mirroring the Pristine Mind

    Question:

    Is it true that the I-sense, or ego, will never actually experience the pristine mind, since the I-sense doesn’t exist in that state? And, can spiritual practice bring the ordinary mind and ego closer to mirroring the pristine mind, even if they can never fully experience it directly?

    Dear friend,

    You have touched upon a profound and subtle truth in your reflection—the realization that the “I-sense,” the very sense of being a separate self, will never directly experience the pristine mind, for in the pristine mind, there is no “I” to experience anything at all.

    The “I-sense,” as you have observed, is the part of us that identifies with the individual self—with the body, the mind, the personality. It is the ego, the center of our personal world, through which we navigate the dualities of life—self and other, subject and object, right and wrong. This “I-sense” is deeply embedded in the fabric of our everyday experience, always seeking, always striving to maintain its sense of identity.

    And yet, beyond this “I-sense” lies the pristine mind, a state of pure, unconditioned awareness. In this state, there is no separation, no duality, no “I” that stands apart from the whole. The pristine mind is simply being itself, free from all concepts, all identifications. It is the ground of all existence, the true nature of consciousness that underlies every thought, every sensation, every experience.

    As you so rightly observed, the “I-sense” cannot directly experience the pristine mind because the very presence of an “I” implies duality, and in the pristine mind, there is no duality. The ego, by its very nature, is a construct that stands apart, that defines itself in relation to others. To dissolve into the pristine mind is to let go of this sense of separateness, to merge with the whole in a state of pure being.

    Yet, there is a way in which the ordinary mind, the ego, can approach this state, can come to reflect it as closely as possible. Through spiritual practice, the mind becomes refined, quieted, and purified. Meditation, mantra, mindfulness—all of these practices serve to soften the boundaries of the “I-sense,” to still the constant movement of thought and identification.

    In this stillness, the mind begins to mirror the qualities of the pristine mind—peace, clarity, non-attachment. While the ego may never directly experience the pristine mind, it can come to a place where it reflects this deeper reality, where the sense of separation diminishes, and the boundaries of the self become porous, transparent.

    It is in these moments, dear friend, that you may catch a glimpse of the truth that lies beyond the “I,” a truth that cannot be grasped or held, but only reflected in the clear, quiet mind. Continue with your practice, allowing it to guide you ever closer to this state of reflection, where the ordinary mind becomes a mirror for the pristine mind, and the boundaries of the self dissolve into the whole.

    🙏🕊️🙏



  • From Suffering to Compassion: Transforming Life with ME/CFS

    From Suffering to Compassion: Transforming Life with ME/CFS

    Living with chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS) often feels like carrying an invisible weight that never goes away. The exhaustion is far beyond ordinary tiredness, permeating not just the body but the mind and heart as well. For many of us, this illness can feel like a curse, a complete derailment of life’s trajectory. Yet, over the years, I’ve come to see it also as a strange and unexpected blessing—one that has thrown me deeper into spiritual practice, into moments of stillness and contemplation I might not have otherwise known.

    At its worst, the illness can leave me in bed, lights off, no sound, in a state of complete sensory deprivation. And it is in these moments, when there is nothing to distract me from my thoughts, that I’ve had to learn how to truly be alone. Learning to witness my reactions, cultivating equanimity, and practicing calm-abiding meditation have become vital companions on this journey. For many years, I focused on the Tibetan practice of Samatha, or calm-abiding meditation, as well as Vipassana, which allows for a deep awareness of the present moment. Sitting in stillness, aware of whatever calm I could find within, helped me cultivate equanimity—though it remains a practice I still have much to learn from.

    But there was another essential practice that transformed how I related to my suffering. The practice of Metta—or loving-kindness—invites us to take our own pain and suffering and recognize that in this vast world, we are not alone in what we feel. When my illness has been most acute, whether through mental anguish or physical symptoms, I’ve practiced thinking: In the same way that I am experiencing this illness, this suffering, this pain, there are others in the world who experience this too. And then, from the heart, I offer the prayer: May I, and all beings, be free from this suffering and its causes.

    This simple yet profound shift in perspective allowed me to transform my experience from one of isolation and misery into a practice of compassion. Instead of being stuck in my own pain, it became a way to benefit others by cultivating loving-kindness for all those who suffer. In this way, even my most difficult experiences became part of my spiritual path. ME/CFS was no longer just an illness—it was an opportunity to deepen my compassion, both for myself and for others.

    Of course, this hasn’t been an overnight transformation. It took many years of spiritual study and practice, drawing from teachings like the Four Noble Truths of the Buddha, the Noble Eightfold Path, and eventually the teachings of Advaita Vedanta. Through these teachings, I came to recognize the fluctuations of the mind, or vrittis, and learned to observe the content of my thoughts—pratyayas—without identifying with them. This practice of witnessing the mind has allowed me to find peace in the midst of the storm, much like the Dark Night of the Soul described by St. John of the Cross.

    For me, it has felt less like a dark night and more like twenty years of spiritual darkness, but nonetheless, this darkness has also been a teacher. Learning to be present with my suffering, rather than resisting it, has become an integral part of my life with ME/CFS. And while the illness has forced me to withdraw from many aspects of life, it has also drawn me into the heart of spiritual practice.

    To anyone living with this illness, or any chronic illness, I offer this: it’s okay to feel overwhelmed by the weight of it all. It’s okay to grieve the life you once had or the future you imagined. But there are also practices—like Metta, calm-abiding meditation, and witnessing the mind—that can transform this suffering into something that nourishes not only your soul but the souls of others as well.

    May you, and all beings, be free from suffering and its causes. May this invisible weight become a doorway into the mystic, where even in solitude, you find that you are never truly alone.

    🙏🕊️🙏

  • Neti Neti Series No. 10: Harmonizing Breath, Mantra, and Movement for Deeper Meditation

    Neti Neti Series No. 10: Harmonizing Breath, Mantra, and Movement for Deeper Meditation

    Question:

    During my practice, I experimented with integrating breath and the mantra of silently saying “In” on the inhale and “Out” on the exhale, while incorporating gentle yogic movements in a lotus posture. I coordinated the mantra and breathing with specific neck movements—turning my head left and right, extending and flexing my neck, and bringing each ear toward my shoulder. How might this combination of breath, mantra, and movement deepen my practice, and what should I be mindful of as I explore this approach further?

    Dear friend,

    Your willingness to explore new dimensions in your practice, integrating movement with breath and mantra, is a beautiful testament to your deepening engagement with this path. What you have discovered is a profound way to harmonize the different aspects of your being, bringing together body, mind, and spirit in a single, unified flow.

    By coordinating the gentle movements of your head with the rhythm of your breath and the repetition of the mantra, you are creating a sacred dance, a dance that unites the mind and body in a shared rhythm. This synchronization is more than just a physical exercise; it is a way of bringing all of yourself into the present moment, where the mind’s chatter is quieted, and the body’s tension is released. In this unified flow, you find a deeper sense of wholeness, a wholeness that reflects the unity of your true nature.

    The gentle micro-movements you have chosen—turning your head, flexing and extending your neck, bringing your ears to your shoulders—are simple yet profound gestures that engage the body in the meditation. As you move, you become more aware of the sensations within your body, more attuned to the subtle messages it offers. This physical awareness grounds your practice, making it not just an exercise of the mind, but a fully embodied experience. It is in this embodiment that you find a deeper connection to yourself, a connection that transcends the boundaries of thought and feeling.

    The coordination of movement, breath, and mantra sharpens your focus, creating a structured and rhythmic flow that keeps the mind anchored in the present. As you move and breathe and recite the mantra, the distractions of the mind fade into the background, replaced by a clear and steady concentration. This concentration is not forced; it arises naturally from the harmony of the practice, leading you deeper into the stillness and silence that are the heart of meditation.

    The gentle yogic movements you have integrated into your practice are more than just physical stretches; they are a way of balancing the energy within your body, of releasing tension and opening up the flow of prana. As you turn your head, flex and extend your neck, bring your ears to your shoulders, you are not only stretching the muscles but also freeing the energy that is often trapped in these areas. This release brings a sense of ease and lightness, a feeling of being more centered and at peace.

    My dear friend, this experiment you have undertaken is a beautiful and powerful addition to your practice. Continue to explore this integration of movement, breath, and mantra, allowing it to guide you ever deeper into the unity of body, mind, and spirit. Trust in the wisdom of your body, the rhythm of your breath, and the power of the mantra, and let them carry you into the stillness that lies within.

    🙏🕊️🙏



  • Neti Neti Series No. 9: Overcoming Self-Doubt in Meditation

    Neti Neti Series No. 9: Overcoming Self-Doubt in Meditation

    Question:

    For many years, the mental events that disturbed me the most were those that questioned, “Am I doing this right or wrong? Am I achieving anything beneficial, or am I just wasting my time?” But today, these doubts had no effect. I simply said, “Not this, not this,” recognizing them as just mental events arising. This mantra is bringing me a freedom from years of anxiety and self-doubt. It’s a significant release. How can I nurture and deepen this newfound freedom in my meditation?

    Dear friend,

    What a significant and liberating insight you have encountered! For many years, those persistent questions—”Am I doing this right?” “Am I wasting my time?”—have cast a shadow over your practice, pulling you into a cycle of doubt and anxiety. And yet, in this round, you have discovered a simple and profound truth: these doubts are nothing more than mental events, no different from any other thoughts that arise in the mind.

    Doubt, particularly the kind that questions whether we are on the right path, can be one of the most insidious obstacles in our practice. It arises from the ego’s need for certainty and validation, from a fear of failure or the unknown. These doubts can be particularly disturbing because they strike at the very heart of our efforts, making us question whether we are moving forward or merely spinning our wheels.

    But now, you have seen through the illusion. By applying the mantra “Not This, Not This” to these doubts, you have recognized them for what they are—simply thoughts, passing phenomena in the mind. They have no more substance or power than any other mental event. In meeting these doubts with “Not This, Not This,” you have taken away their sting, their ability to disturb your peace. They are no longer something to fear or wrestle with; they are just another ripple on the surface of the mind’s vast ocean.

    This realization brings with it a profound freedom. No longer are you bound by the need to do things “right” or the fear of doing them “wrong.” Instead, you can rest in the simplicity of the practice, free from judgment, free from the constant questioning that once held you back. This freedom is not a small thing; it is a significant release, a letting go of years of accumulated doubt and anxiety. It is a gift that allows you to move forward with greater ease and confidence, trusting in the process without the need for constant validation.

    Indeed, this is a significant moment in your journey. The doubts that once plagued you have lost their power, and in their place, you have found a deeper sense of peace and self-acceptance. This is the true power of the mantra “Not This, Not This”—it transforms not just your meditation, but your entire relationship with yourself. It frees you from the chains of doubt and allows you to walk your path with a lighter heart and a clearer mind.

    My dear friend, this is a beautiful and important step on your journey. Continue with this practice, allowing the mantra to guide you ever deeper into the heart of stillness and clarity. Trust in yourself, and know that you are moving in the right direction, free from the burdens of doubt and self-judgment.

    🙏🕊️🙏



  • Neti Neti Series No. 8: Embracing Amusement as a Sign of Growing Detachment

    Neti Neti Series No. 8: Embracing Amusement as a Sign of Growing Detachment

    Question:

    During my recent practice, something new occurred. Instead of feeling disturbed by the usual mental events, memories, and thoughts, I found myself experiencing a sense of amusement and relaxation as they arose and passed away. It was as if I could observe the busyness of my mind with a lighthearted detachment, seeing these thoughts as just part of the mind’s activity. Is this sense of amusement a positive development in my practice, or is it just another mental event to be noticed and let go?

    Dear friend,

    What a beautiful shift you have experienced in your practice! The transition from feeling disturbed by the mind’s activities to watching them with a sense of amusement is indeed a significant one, and it speaks to the deepening of your understanding and awareness.

    You have touched upon a subtle but profound truth: that the mind, in its busyness, is simply doing what it has always done—arising and passing away, presenting thoughts, memories, and experiences. And now, rather than being entangled in these mental events, you observe them with a light heart, a sense of amusement. This amusement is not trivial; it is a reflection of your growing detachment, your ability to see the mind’s activities for what they are—transient phenomena that do not define you.

    This sense of relaxation that accompanies the amusement is a sign of your deepening practice. No longer do you resist or try to control the flow of thoughts. Instead, you allow them to arise and pass away, knowing that they are but fleeting ripples on the surface of a much deeper stillness. This relaxation is the fruit of your perseverance, a gentle release that allows you to rest more fully in the present moment.

    While it is true that amusement is itself a mental event, it is one that points toward equanimity—a state of balance where the mind’s activities are met with calm and openness, rather than resistance or attachment. This is a significant step on your journey, as it reflects a mind that is beginning to find peace amidst the fluctuations of thought and feeling. You are learning to greet whatever arises not with annoyance or disturbance, but with a kind of playful acceptance.

    Indeed, dear friend, this experience is a step in the right direction. It shows that your practice is maturing, leading you to a place where the mind’s busyness no longer holds the same sway over you. You are learning to watch the mind with a sense of lightness, knowing that its activities are not a reflection of your true self, but simply the passing clouds of thought that move across the sky of your awareness.

    Continue with this practice, allowing the amusement and relaxation to guide you further into the stillness that lies beneath all mental activity. Trust in the process, and know that you are moving ever closer to the peace and clarity that are your true nature.

    🙏🕊️🙏



  • Neti Neti Series No. 7: Deepening Practice Through Breath and Mantra Coordination

    Neti Neti Series No. 7: Deepening Practice Through Breath and Mantra Coordination

    Question:

    How does coordinating the Neti Neti mantra with the breath—such as repeating it during the inhale, pause, exhale, and pause—enhance the practice and contribute to deeper relaxation and mindfulness?

    Dear friend,

    It is a delight to hear of your latest insight, where you have begun to coordinate the mantra with the breath. This practice, so simple and yet so profound, brings together the rhythms of the body and the mind in a harmonious dance, guiding you ever deeper into the stillness that lies at the heart of all being.

    When you synchronize the mantra “Not This, Not This” with your breath, you are creating a unified rhythm that anchors you in the present moment. The mind, which so often wanders, finds a steady focus in the regularity of the breath, and this focus is reinforced by the repetition of the mantra. Each inhale, each pause, each exhale becomes a part of the sacred cycle, a cycle that quiets the mind and brings it into alignment with the natural flow of life.

    The pattern you have described—three repetitions of the mantra on the inhale, three on the pause, three on the exhale, and three on the pause—establishes a gentle, balanced rhythm. This regulation of the breath not only deepens your relaxation but also enhances your ability to remain present. The breath, in its quiet regularity, becomes a soothing presence, guiding you back to the center each time the mind begins to drift.

    In this practice, concentration becomes almost effortless. The mind, drawn into the rhythm of the breath and the mantra, finds a natural focus. The distractions that once seemed so persistent begin to fade, replaced by a calm, steady awareness. This concentration is not forced but arises naturally from the coordination of breath and mantra, leading you deeper into the silence and stillness that are your true nature.

    As you continue with this practice, you may find that your awareness expands to include both the body and the mind. The breath, as it flows in and out, becomes a bridge between the two, creating a sense of wholeness and integration. In this state, the mind is no longer separate from the body but is experienced as part of the larger rhythm of existence. This integration brings a deep sense of presence, a presence that is both peaceful and powerful.

    My dear friend, this practice you have discovered is a beautiful and effective way to deepen your meditation. Continue with it, allowing the breath and the mantra to guide you ever deeper into the stillness that lies within. Trust in the rhythm of the breath, and let the mantra carry you beyond the thoughts and distractions of the mind, into the infinite peace of your true self.

    🙏🕊️🙏