Category: ME/CFS Prayers: Finding Solace and Strength in Spirituality
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We are called to make our best effort, yet there are moments when something greater lifts us beyond our own abilities. Like an eagle, we can only fly to the capacity of our wings, but on occasion, we soar beyond them. Our desire and effort to connect with God open the door for Divine Grace to take us where we can not go on our own. This interplay between effort and grace reminds us that while we are called to give our all, it’s the mysterious force of grace that allows us to go beyond what we thought possible. It’s a humbling and inspiring truth, one that calls us to act, but also to surrender. In this partnership of effort and grace, we glimpse the transformative power of divine love, leading us closer to God’s will.
Western and Eastern philosophies each offer unique perspectives on perfection. The Western view says, “Perfection is when there’s nothing left to add.” In contrast, the Eastern view says, “Perfection is when there’s nothing left to take away.”
Both ideas guide us toward simplicity and balance, but the Eastern approach invites us to strip away all that is unnecessary, leaving only the pure essence of what is.
This perspective is deeply resonant with the practice of sitting at the door of the Cloud of Unknowing. There’s no need to strive, to add meaning, or to make anything happen. The perfection lies in just being—letting go of everything extra until you’re left with the quiet stillness of presence.
This is a reminder that life’s perfection isn’t about accumulation but about letting go. Rest in what remains when there’s nothing left to take away.
…a restless wanderer, always searching but never finding. Sitting at the door, however, the ego transforms—no longer lost, but given a purpose. It becomes the guardian of stillness, patiently awaiting what cannot be sought, allowing presence to arise on its own.
The Cloud of Unknowing teaches us to sit at the door of divine mystery, letting go of effort and surrendering to grace. This mirrors profound teachings in the Buddha Dharma, emphasizing direct experience, trust, and stillness.
The Buddha’s phrase “Ehi Passiko” (Come and see) invites us to encounter truth directly—not through intellectual striving, but through quiet observation. In the Satipatthana Sutta, mindfulness is described as simply observing the body, feelings, and mind as they arise, with no need to grasp or resist.
This is like sitting at the door of unknowing: allowing thoughts, emotions, and sensations to come and go, while resting in awareness. We are not called to force understanding or make something happen; we simply sit, trusting the process.
Another Buddhist teaching, Vossagga (letting go), encourages us to release grasping and surrender to the natural flow of life. Even the ego’s restlessness becomes part of the practice, not something to fight against. As we trust the unfolding of awareness, stillness grows.
This gentle practice reminds us that neither the ego nor effort creates transformation—it is the natural interplay of surrender and grace. Whether we call it divine love or pristine awareness, sitting at the door reveals a deeper truth.
How can you embrace this today? Simply sit. Let go. Trust.
In a world that celebrates action, stillness offers a different kind of renewal. Sitting at the door of unknowing—open, patient, and without expectation—allows a subtle yet profound transformation.
Renewal doesn’t have to mean physical strength or outward achievements. It can be the quiet resilience to face life’s challenges, the emotional peace to let go of striving, and the trust to simply be.
In this practice, strength is not about doing more but about surrendering more deeply. Renewal arises not from effort but from grace, gently unfolding as you rest in the simplicity of presence.
Sitting at the door is enough. Renewal comes when we stop chasing it and allow it to find us.
In moments of busyness or stress, we can look to Psalm 46:10, which says, “Be still, and know that I am God.” This verse reminds us to take time to pause and recognize God’s sovereignty and presence in our lives.
Embracing stillness can lead us to deeper peace and understanding. Perhaps today could be a day for you to practice that stillness—whether through prayer, meditation on Scripture, or simply taking a few moments of quiet reflection.
How do you usually find peace amid the hustle and bustle?
Following the path of meditation can feel like a gradual unraveling of the known—a shedding of what we once held onto, leading us into the mystery of contemplation. As I continue reflecting on the works of St. John of the Cross, this sacred shift from meditation into contemplation becomes clearer. It is not a step we take with effort but a grace that gently unfolds when the time is right.
St. John speaks of this transition as a call to surrender, but it is not the kind of surrender we can will into existence. Instead, it is a letting go that happens when we stop striving, when we allow ourselves to simply rest in the presence of the Divine. This is where the familiar practices of meditation—focused attention, mental inquiry, or breath awareness—fall away, giving space for something more profound to emerge.
Today, I felt this shift more deeply, not as an intellectual understanding, but as a living experience. The pratyayas—the thoughts, sensations, and memories that rise and fall—became like whispers, their pull softening in the presence of curiosity. This curiosity is not the kind that seeks answers, but one that witnesses, without needing anything to happen. In that gentle witnessing, something new emerged: a spaciousness, a quiet stillness that felt like home.
This experience is not unique to Christian mysticism. In Advaita Vedanta, the practice of self-inquiry often begins with a repetitive questioning—”Who am I?”—an active search for truth. But, as with St. John’s teachings, there comes a time when even the inquiry must dissolve into silence. The seeker steps back, not into a place of knowing, but into a place of being. In that being, all effort falls away, and we are left with the pristine awareness that has always been there.
In silence, love calls,
No longer through words or thought,
But in quiet grace.
This is the threshold between seeking and being, a place where the Divine does its quiet work in us. It is no longer about striving or yearning for a deeper experience; it is about trusting in the unfolding of love, which asks only that we rest in its presence.
For those of us on this journey, may we continue to trust this sacred shift—moving from meditation into contemplation, from seeking into being. In this silent surrender, we come closer to the essence of who we truly are.
As I re-read the works of St. John of the Cross, I have become more attuned to the threshold of transition—the dryness and emptiness that so often precede the invitation to move from meditation into contemplation. This is not unique to St. John; it is something pointed to by many of the great teachers. Whether it’s Namkhai Norbu, Ramana Maharshi, Thich Nhat Hanh, the Dalai Lama, or Orgyen Chowang in Pristine Mind, they all plant the seeds of meditative absorption, which only take root when the time is right. Now, it seems, those seeds are beginning to bloom, not as intellectual concepts, but as a living, unfolding experience.
Today, I found myself drawn into this quiet transformation. As I lay in stillness, the pratyayas—those passing thoughts, sensations, and memories—began to rise and fall, like waves on a distant shore. Curiosity, that soft and patient witness, guided me deeper, not into understanding but into presence.
The breath came of its own accord, a deep release from somewhere beyond my conscious will, as if the body itself knew what needed to unfold. And then, an awareness—a spaciousness—arose. It was not something I had summoned, nor could I hold it in place. It was simply there, naked and pure, like a clear blue sky.
St. John of the Cross speaks of this as a kind of surrender, but not the kind we can choose. It is a grace bestowed, not earned. In the stillness, I realized that my role was not to force this shift but to allow it to happen. To remain as the observer, the witness, as the Divine unfolded in its own time.
What struck me most deeply was the paradox of this surrender. The very act of trying to let go becomes an obstacle. Instead, it is curiosity that opens the door to pure awareness—curiosity that has no desire, no need for something to happen, but simply observes what is.
Today, in this unfolding, I realized that even the longing for deeper experience can become a barrier. The path is not one of striving but of witnessing. And in that witness, the Divine does its quiet work, purifying what needs to be released, and bringing us ever closer to the essence of who we truly are.
As I reflect on my own journey today, it is my hope, and the shared intention (Sankalpa) behind all of this work, that by sharing these reflections, insights, and experiences, they may serve as a guide, a comfort, or a spark of inspiration to those who come across them.
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Book Recommendation: St. John of the Cross, Dark Night of the Soul
Dark Night of the Soul by St. John of the Cross is a spiritual masterpiece that explores the transformative power of suffering and the journey toward union with the Divine. This work describes the profound spiritual experience of being stripped of all attachments, both inner and outer, as a necessary process for purification and deeper connection with God. For those experiencing a time of spiritual dryness or emptiness, St. John’s words offer hope and guidance through the darkness, illuminating the path to deeper faith and surrender. The Dark Night is not a time of despair, but of ultimate transformation, where we are invited to let go of our limited understanding and trust in the unfolding of the Divine. This book serves as a timeless companion for anyone navigating the challenges of the contemplative path, especially those who feel drawn to the shift from meditation to deeper contemplation.
Book Recommendation: Orgyen Chowang, Our Pristine Mind
In The Pristine Mind, Orgyen Chowang offers profound teachings on accessing our natural state of mind—a state of clarity, openness, and peace. He draws from the Dzogchen tradition, emphasizing that our true nature is already pure and perfect, and that through practice, we can return to this unconditioned state. For those on a contemplative journey, Chowang’s words provide a practical path for moving beyond mental noise and distractions, guiding us back to the inherent stillness of the mind. This book is especially helpful for those who wish to deepen their meditation practice or shift from intellectual understanding to living experience. The Pristine Mind invites readers to discover the profound joy and serenity that arises when we rest in the awareness of our true nature.
There is a quiet truth that lives within each of us, a place that is untouched by the noise of the world, a stillness that is ever-present. It’s not reserved for moments of crisis or for the end of life. It’s here, now—waiting for us to settle into its embrace.
Yet how often do we run from this stillness? We search for peace in the future, hoping it will come once we’ve completed our tasks, achieved our goals, or silenced our minds. But peace is already here, calling us back to the simplicity of being.
The Practice:
The practice begins with a simple mantra: “I am That.”
When we say these words, we invite ourselves to rest in the truth of who we are. It’s not about searching or striving—it’s a return to the natural state, where we belong. Repeat the mantra aloud, or silently in your heart, and allow yourself to rest. After each repetition, sit in silence for as long as you like, letting the mantra echo softly within.
And when you are ready, say it again: “I am That.”
There is no rush, no goal, no expectation—just the simple unfolding of awareness.
As thoughts arise, as distractions call, simply return to the mantra, letting it be like a lullaby for the restless mind.
Reflections Along the Way:
Follow the rhythm of the mantra, thoughts may come, feelings may arise. Let them pass like clouds, and rest beneath them, in the vast expanse of awareness.
You are that light, shining through all things. Rest… in the knowing.
Effortless and true, you return to what you are. Rest… in your nature.
Like a drifting cloud, the ego searches in vain. Rest… beneath the sky.
In quiet grace, he guides, showing the way back to self. Rest… in deep gratitude.
Thoughts, desires, restlessness—all falls away when we stop chasing after them. Rest in the simplicity of being.
In this way, dear reader, the mantra becomes not just words, but the very breath of being. So, rest in this mystic presence, this silence that is always there, gently touching the surface of awareness.
In the dance of both, stillness and movement arise. Rest… in the balance.
A passing thought, no more, like a ripple in still waters. Rest… in your knowing.
Being is the truth felt, beyond what eyes can hold. Rest… in the knowing of being.
Like seasons that turn, each step comes in its own time. Rest… and let it flow.
Resting in Silence
The journey, dear reader, is not about forcing the mind to be still or silent. It is about allowing the natural stillness and silence of our true self to be seen, felt and appreciated, unclouded by thought, unburdened by desire. By continuing to rest in this silence, we come to realize that the peace we seek has always been here. We become “Self-Realized.”
The practice of resting in the silence is a gift we give ourselves while we are alive. It’s not reserved for the end of life; it is the way to live fully, in peace, right here, right now. The mantra is a guide, and the silence is the true teacher.
Rest in silence. Rest in peace. Rest in your true nature. You are That.
Reflections on Pristine Awareness, Dzogchen, and Finding Clarity in Challenging Times
As I sit with Our Pristine Mind in my hands, I am aware that I am not merely reading a book. I am entering a silent conversation with an ancient wisdom, one that gently unfolds its layers with each page, as if lifting the veils of my own mind. In the quiet of early morning or beneath the faint glow of a reading lamp at night, the words begin to sink into the places where thought usually moves too quickly, too restlessly.
Dzogchen—a word I’ve heard in passing, sometimes as an exotic echo from distant mountains, sometimes as an answer whispered through stories of sages and scholars—is not simply an idea here. It emerges like a breath I have almost forgotten to take, a reminder that within my mind lies a pure, boundless awareness untouched by the cycles of confusion, emotion, or distraction. Dzogchen does not demand; it simply reveals.
The teacher, Orgyen Chowang Rinpoche, through his voice in Our Pristine Mind, speaks to the essential nature of awareness with a softness that does not impose but invites. I am reminded of Rilke, who once spoke of patience and of growing quietly in one’s own way, like a tree. Here, too, the practice of Dzogchen is like that tree, patient and grounded, yet ever-revealing. It asks nothing from me but presence, a willingness to recognize that what I have been searching for has always been here, beneath the surface of my rushing thoughts.
Rinpoche speaks to our current world—the difficulties, the fractures, the relentless march of modern life. Dzogchen, he says, has come forward in these times not because it is new, but because we are perhaps ready to see its simplicity. To see that the vastness of pristine awareness is not somewhere far away or reserved for saints and sages. It is here, in the quiet pause between breaths, in the stillness that accompanies an unfiltered experience of now.
The metaphor of the “brilliant moon in dark times” comes alive as I read, a reminder that even in moments when life feels overcast and filled with turmoil, there exists within us a clear, illuminating presence. Dzogchen does not banish the darkness; rather, it reveals a light that has been hidden within it all along.
This practice, this profound teaching, calls us to approach life differently—to walk, speak, even think with the awareness that we are not separate from each other, from the world, or from the mind that perceives it all. It is an invitation to cultivate what Rinpoche calls “pristine awareness” in daily life, and this awareness transforms not only how we experience joy but also how we engage with suffering. Even anger, fear, and sorrow are welcomed as parts of the unfolding dance, teachers in their own right.
The path of Dzogchen, I am learning, is not about leaving this world behind or aspiring to some distant perfection. Instead, it is an opening into a fuller, clearer life here and now—a kind of blossoming from the cold winter of searching into the warm spring of presence.
If you feel the weight of the world’s challenges or the heaviness of inner obstacles, there is a softness, a kindness in Dzogchen that may resonate. As I explore these teachings, I feel them steadying me, offering a compass to navigate the storms of distraction and disconnection that modern life so often brings.
And so, I share these reflections with the hope that you, too, may find something here that speaks to your own journey—a word, a phrase, a quiet reminder of the freedom that rests quietly within, waiting to be seen.
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If you’re interested in exploring this transformative approach further, I highly recommend Orgyen Chowang’s book The Pristine Mind. His teachings provide a clear, compassionate path toward uncovering the inherent purity of our mind, offering a source of deep fulfillment and lasting peace.
Explore the transformative path of Hitbonenut and Bittul in Jewish mysticism, as practiced by the Alter Rebbe, to reach direct experience and divine unity.
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“… the esteemed Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi, the great sage and author of the book Tanya, in his later years would immerse himself daily in deep contemplation and focus on achieving Hitbonenut and Bittul, self-nullification, before beginning his prayers. He would sit in a secluded area and enter a state of spiritual readiness, preparing himself to reach closeness to the divine through his meditative practices. Those who observed him would attest to the honor and respect that this revered practice commanded, reflecting his commitment to true divine connection.”
Discovering the Boundless: The Alter Rebbe’s Practice of Hitbonenut and Bittul
In the rich tradition of Jewish mysticism, Hitbonenut and Bittul are contemplative practices often approached as meditative paths focused on divine ideas. These practices are frequently interpreted as ways of concentrating on spiritual concepts to deepen one’s understanding. However, the Alter Rebbe, Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi—the founder of Chabad Hasidism—offers us a window into a more profound dimension of these practices, where contemplation moves beyond intellectual meditation and opens into direct experience.
The Alter Rebbe’s personal practice of Hitbonenut is a cornerstone of Chabad Chassidus. According to tradition, he would spend hours in Hitbonenut before beginning his prayers, not merely analyzing divine concepts but immersing himself in a state of awareness that dissolves the self into the infinite, what Jewish mysticism calls the Ein Sof—the boundless and limitless aspect of the divine.
In this expansive approach to Hitbonenut, contemplation shifts from thought-focused meditation to an experiential opening, leading to what other traditions describe as the “pristine mind” or “pure contemplation.” By embracing the formless, open nature of awareness, the Alter Rebbe connected to a state beyond the grasp of the ego, inviting direct experience of the divine presence.
This journey is deepened through Bittul, or self-nullification. Where Hitbonenut opens the door to spacious, boundless awareness, Bittul is the surrender of the self into that awareness. It’s a release of the ego’s hold, a quieting of personal identity that allows a merging with the infinite. This act of surrender is not a negation but an opening—a dissolving of the self to align fully with divine unity.
For those of us seeking to understand Hitbonenut and Bittul in this way, the Alter Rebbe’s practice offers a reminder that contemplation in its purest form transcends the intellect. It’s not about conceptual analysis but about experiencing divine unity as a living reality. As we explore this path, we step beyond thought, into the boundless.
In upcoming posts, we’ll further explore the practical steps, reflections, and guidance to cultivate these practices. Hitbonenut and Bittul invite us into the spaciousness of mystical contemplation, guiding us from understanding to a direct encounter with the divine.
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Book Review: Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi: The Philosophy of Chabad by Nisan Mendel
Nisan Mendel’sRabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi: The Philosophy of Chabad is a profound exploration of the life and teachings of one of Jewish mysticism’s most influential figures. Rabbi Schneur Zalman, known as the Alter Rebbe, was the founder of the Chabad movement, and his teachings remain central to Hasidic philosophy and contemplative practice today.
Through this work, Mendel delves into the essence of Chabad philosophy, particularly its unique approach to Hitbonenut (contemplative meditation) and Bittul (self-nullification). Readers are introduced to the Alter Rebbe’s belief that intellectual understanding can be a pathway to divine experience, bridging the mind and heart to foster a deep connection with God. The book sheds light on the Alter Rebbe’s methods for approaching mystical contemplation, offering practical insights for those looking to incorporate these timeless practices into their own lives.
Mendel’s accessible writing and thoughtful explanations make complex topics approachable, while his reverence for the subject shines through, bringing Rabbi Schneur Zalman’s teachings to life. This book is especially valuable for readers who wish to understand the spiritual framework of Chabad and its emphasis on meditative thought as a means to reach divine awareness.
Whether you’re new to the ideas of Hitbonenut and Bittul or are already on a contemplative journey, The Philosophy of Chabad offers a valuable gateway to the Alter Rebbe’s approach to mysticism. By providing both philosophical insights and practical approaches, Mendel encourages readers to go beyond surface understanding and explore the depths of Chabad’s spiritual tradition.
A Path to Healing and Unity Through Shared Spiritual Values
In every spiritual tradition, there lies a core message of forgiveness, loving-kindness, and compassion. These virtues, transcending cultural and religious boundaries, unite us in our shared humanity. Whether through the teachings of Buddha, the wisdom of Jesus, or insights from various spiritual paths, the call to embrace these qualities is clear and compelling.
Forgiveness is a profound act of letting go. It isn’t about condoning wrongdoings but freeing ourselves from the burdens of anger and resentment. As the Dalai Lama teaches, forgiveness is a gift we give to ourselves, a step toward inner peace.
Loving-Kindness, or “metta” in Buddhist practice, encourages us to extend unconditional love to all beings. Jesus exemplified this through his life, teaching us to love our neighbors as ourselves. In every smile, kind word, and act of generosity, we weave a tapestry of love that can heal and uplift.
Compassion is the heart’s response to suffering. It compels us to act, to alleviate pain, and offer solace. Teachings from various traditions remind us that compassion is not a passive feeling but an active force for good. Through compassion, we recognize our interconnectedness and our responsibility to care for one another.
In these challenging times, let’s draw from the wellsprings of our diverse spiritual heritages. Let us embrace forgiveness, loving-kindness, and compassion not just as lofty ideals, but as daily practices that transform our lives and the world around us.
Together, we can create a world where these universal values form the foundation of our interactions, fostering unity, peace, and understanding among all people.
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