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  • Into the Mystic: Curiosity as the Pathway to Pure Awareness

    This morning’s contemplative practice felt like stepping into a new realm, where meditation falls away and contemplation unfolds in its place. It was not something I forced or sought after, but rather a quiet surrender into what was already there, waiting to be noticed.

    As I lay in stillness, curious pratyayas of sensation and thought began to arise—small flickers of tension in the body, fleeting memories, echoes of past emotions. Yet, there was no need to hold on to them, nor push them away. Instead, curiosity became the guiding force, allowing me to rest gently in the awareness of what is. This curiosity was not the kind that seeks answers, but rather the kind that simply observes without interference—a curiosity that watches, without wanting or resisting.

    Namkhai Norbu, in his teachings on Dzogchen, speaks of resting in the natural state, which is not something we attain but something we return to. This state of pure awareness is our birthright, and through practices like sky-gazing, we are reminded of its boundless nature. It is spacious, free of judgment, and untouched by the fluctuations of the mind.

    In the stillness of this morning’s practice, I realized how much the mind wants to grasp, to make meaning, or to categorize each sensation or thought that arises. But when we remain in curiosity, those tendencies dissolve. The pratyayas come and go like clouds passing through the sky, and we remain as the observer of it all.

    St. John of the Cross describes this process as the soul’s purification—moving through the dark night, not by pushing through it, but by allowing it to unfold naturally. In this unfolding, even the act of surrender becomes effortless. We simply rest in the awareness of being, trusting that the Divine is doing its quiet work in us, without our interference.

    This morning’s practice reminded me that contemplation is not something we achieve; it is something we allow. When curiosity is present, we move away from striving for an experience and simply witness what is. And in that witnessing, the doorway to pure awareness opens, effortlessly.

    As we continue this contemplative journey, may we lean into the practice of curiosity, allowing it to gently lead us into the spaciousness of pure awareness. In this space, we discover that everything we seek has always been within us, waiting to be uncovered.

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  • Into the Mystic: Embracing Impermanence, Resting in Awareness

    As I sit here in my yard, under the shade of tall trees and a sky so vast, I am reminded of the gentle teachings of impermanence. The pratyayas, those rising and falling sensations, memories, and thoughts, have once again surfaced, but they do not hold the weight they once did. Instead, there is a soft awareness that everything is already changing, and that in the grand scheme of time, everything is already gone.

    I look over at my RV, which has been a sanctuary for me for so many years. Soon, this land will become something else, transformed into a clubhouse. And yet, in this moment, I am filled with deep appreciation for what has been, for the unconscious and conscious years spent on this blessed earth. The impermanence of it all doesn’t bring sadness, but rather a profound gratitude for having lived through it, both mindfully and unmindfully.

    Namkhai Norbu’s sky-gazing practice teaches us to rest in the awareness of what is, without grasping or rejecting. In these moments of contemplation, I’m reminded that sky-gazing isn’t about observing the physical sky but allowing the mind to open into its own natural spaciousness. The practice reflects what is already within—clear, vast, and untouched by the clouds of thought.

    As pratyayas of impermanence arise, they are met not with resistance but with curiosity. Curiosity has become my companion on this contemplative path, gently guiding me to rest in awareness without the need for answers or conclusions. There is no longer a push for meaning, only the quiet observation of the present moment unfolding, just as it is.

    In this state of being, I can feel both the impermanence of the physical world and the abiding stillness of awareness. It is a paradox, and yet it is also the simplest truth: everything changes, and yet awareness remains the same.

    The teachings of St. John of the Cross, Ramana Maharshi, and Namkhai Norbu all point to this truth in their own ways. We move through life, through our spiritual practices, sometimes seeking, sometimes grasping for deeper experiences. But there comes a moment when we simply stop, when we rest in the spaciousness that has always been there. It is not a state we attain; it is a state we remember.

    As I continue this practice, I feel a deep gratitude, not just for the present moment, but for all that has been and all that will come. And in this gratitude, the pratyayas seem to soften, leaving behind the quiet awareness that is always there, patiently waiting for us to return.

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  • Discovering Mystical Contemplation: The Alter Rebbe’s Practice of Hitbonenut and Bittul

    Discovering Mystical Contemplation: The Alter Rebbe’s Practice of Hitbonenut and Bittul

    Explore the transformative path of Hitbonenut and Bittul in Jewish mysticism, as practiced by the Alter Rebbe, to reach direct experience and divine unity.

    Translation of the Hebrew Text in the Above Image

    “… the esteemed Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi, the great sage and author of the book Tanya, in his later years would immerse himself daily in deep contemplation and focus on achieving Hitbonenut and Bittul, self-nullification, before beginning his prayers. He would sit in a secluded area and enter a state of spiritual readiness, preparing himself to reach closeness to the divine through his meditative practices. Those who observed him would attest to the honor and respect that this revered practice commanded, reflecting his commitment to true divine connection.”

    Discovering the Boundless: The Alter Rebbe’s Practice of Hitbonenut and Bittul

    In the rich tradition of Jewish mysticism, Hitbonenut and Bittul are contemplative practices often approached as meditative paths focused on divine ideas. These practices are frequently interpreted as ways of concentrating on spiritual concepts to deepen one’s understanding. However, the Alter Rebbe, Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi—the founder of Chabad Hasidism—offers us a window into a more profound dimension of these practices, where contemplation moves beyond intellectual meditation and opens into direct experience.

    The Alter Rebbe’s personal practice of Hitbonenut is a cornerstone of Chabad Chassidus. According to tradition, he would spend hours in Hitbonenut before beginning his prayers, not merely analyzing divine concepts but immersing himself in a state of awareness that dissolves the self into the infinite, what Jewish mysticism calls the Ein Sof—the boundless and limitless aspect of the divine.

    In this expansive approach to Hitbonenut, contemplation shifts from thought-focused meditation to an experiential opening, leading to what other traditions describe as the “pristine mind” or “pure contemplation.” By embracing the formless, open nature of awareness, the Alter Rebbe connected to a state beyond the grasp of the ego, inviting direct experience of the divine presence.

    This journey is deepened through Bittul, or self-nullification. Where Hitbonenut opens the door to spacious, boundless awareness, Bittul is the surrender of the self into that awareness. It’s a release of the ego’s hold, a quieting of personal identity that allows a merging with the infinite. This act of surrender is not a negation but an opening—a dissolving of the self to align fully with divine unity.

    For those of us seeking to understand Hitbonenut and Bittul in this way, the Alter Rebbe’s practice offers a reminder that contemplation in its purest form transcends the intellect. It’s not about conceptual analysis but about experiencing divine unity as a living reality. As we explore this path, we step beyond thought, into the boundless.

    In upcoming posts, we’ll further explore the practical steps, reflections, and guidance to cultivate these practices. Hitbonenut and Bittul invite us into the spaciousness of mystical contemplation, guiding us from understanding to a direct encounter with the divine.

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    Book Review: Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi: The Philosophy of Chabad by Nisan Mendel

    Nisan Mendel’s Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi: The Philosophy of Chabad is a profound exploration of the life and teachings of one of Jewish mysticism’s most influential figures. Rabbi Schneur Zalman, known as the Alter Rebbe, was the founder of the Chabad movement, and his teachings remain central to Hasidic philosophy and contemplative practice today.

    Through this work, Mendel delves into the essence of Chabad philosophy, particularly its unique approach to Hitbonenut (contemplative meditation) and Bittul (self-nullification). Readers are introduced to the Alter Rebbe’s belief that intellectual understanding can be a pathway to divine experience, bridging the mind and heart to foster a deep connection with God. The book sheds light on the Alter Rebbe’s methods for approaching mystical contemplation, offering practical insights for those looking to incorporate these timeless practices into their own lives.

    Mendel’s accessible writing and thoughtful explanations make complex topics approachable, while his reverence for the subject shines through, bringing Rabbi Schneur Zalman’s teachings to life. This book is especially valuable for readers who wish to understand the spiritual framework of Chabad and its emphasis on meditative thought as a means to reach divine awareness.

    Whether you’re new to the ideas of Hitbonenut and Bittul or are already on a contemplative journey, The Philosophy of Chabad offers a valuable gateway to the Alter Rebbe’s approach to mysticism. By providing both philosophical insights and practical approaches, Mendel encourages readers to go beyond surface understanding and explore the depths of Chabad’s spiritual tradition.

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  • Seeking the Kingdom of God: The Paradox of Perfection and Presence

    The mystic journey is one of paradox—seeking that which is already present. Across traditions, whether in Christian teachings about the Kingdom of God or in non-dual philosophies like Advaita Vedanta and Buddhism, the central truth remains: the divine, or perfection, is already here, but it must be realized through spiritual insight. As Jesus said, “The Kingdom of God is within you” (Luke 17:21), yet for most of us, it remains hidden behind the veil of ego and conditioned perception.

    The Spiritual Paradox:

    At the heart of many mystical teachings is the idea of striving for a perfection that we will never attain—because it is not something to attain. It’s not a destination, but a present reality we fail to recognize. This paradox mirrors the Christian teaching of seeking the Kingdom of God, even though it’s already in our midst. In this journey, we are continually asked to refine ourselves, knowing that the striving itself is a tool for unveiling the deeper truth that we are already complete.

    In the words of a friend: “Strive always for perfection, knowing that you will never attain it, and yet you’re as perfect as you will ever be.” This echoes not only in Christian thought but also in the non-dual traditions of the East. Whether it’s Brahman or Buddha-nature, spiritual traditions agree that the ultimate reality is not something the ego-self can grasp or reach.

    Having Eyes to See and Ears to Hear:

    Jesus emphasized that the Kingdom of God is already here for those who have “eyes to see” and “ears to hear.” This teaching parallels the non-dual realization that enlightenment or liberation is not a distant goal, but a shift in awareness. It’s about seeing through the illusion that we are separate from the divine or that the divine is elsewhere.

    In the mystic experience, the ego—the self that seeks—is a pratyaya (a conditioned phenomenon), something that must dissolve for true realization to occur. The ego can never “attain” enlightenment, because the one seeking is part of the illusion. The task, therefore, is to see through this illusion. As Jesus said, those who are spiritually awake can recognize that the Kingdom of God is already here.

    The Practice of Seeking:

    Even though we are already in the Kingdom, we must continue to strive. This striving is not about accumulating spiritual merit or becoming more worthy. It’s about peeling back the layers of ego and illusion to reveal the truth that has always been there. The very act of seeking becomes a practice in humility and surrender, recognizing that the self cannot attain the Kingdom, but that the realization of the Kingdom involves a shift in consciousness—not in achievement.

    In Buddhism, this is the realization of emptiness or shunyata—the recognition that all things, including the self, are empty of inherent existence. In Christianity, it’s the surrender to God’s will and the realization that “it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me” (Galatians 2:20).

    Conclusion:

    The mystical path is one of paradox and deep humility. We strive to seek perfection, knowing that the ego will never attain it, because the perfection we seek is beyond time, space, and the limitations of the mind. We often speak of this perfection as being “present,” yet the present itself is elusive. As we’ve observed, the present moment can never truly be experienced by the senses—by the time we become aware of it, it has already slipped into the past. The perfection we seek is not in the present as we conventionally understand it, but rather beyond time itself, in the timeless reality that transcends the ego.

    This is why enlightenment cannot be made to happen. As Red Anderson said, enlightenment is like an accident—a spontaneous revelation beyond our striving and beyond our ego. And yet, the purpose of practice, whether in Zen, Christian mysticism, or other spiritual traditions, is to make us accident-prone. Practice, mindfulness, and ethical discipline create the conditions for enlightenment or grace to arise, even though we cannot control when or how it will happen.

    In this way, the act of striving itself becomes a form of grace—not because we earn grace through effort, but because our striving prepares us to receive what is already present. Grace, in the spiritual sense, is not something we can control or achieve. Rather, it is a gift that arises when the striving dissolves. Like rain that falls when the soil is ready, grace arrives spontaneously, not as a reward, but as a revelation of the truth that has always been.

    This is why mystics across traditions teach that while we cannot force grace to appear, we can create the conditions for it. Practices like prayer, meditation, or mindfulness soften the ego and open us to receive what is already here. In this sense, grace is the ultimate outcome of our paradoxical journey—not something earned through effort, but something realized when we let go of the need to attain it.

    Thus, as we strive, we also surrender. And when grace arrives, it reveals that the perfection we seek has always been present, beyond time and striving. This recognition dissolves the illusion of separation and resolves the paradox: the Kingdom of God, or enlightenment, was never distant—it was simply waiting to be seen.

    This mirrors the paradox of non-duality in a world of duality: we appear to strive, yet the truth we seek is always here, beyond time and duality. Practice, whether Zen meditation, mindfulness, or prayer, is a way to soften the ego, make us open, and create the conditions for the Kingdom of God, enlightenment, or grace to spontaneously arise. In this sense, we become like a field prepared for rain—we cannot control when the rain will come, but by cultivating the soil, we make ourselves accident-prone to the downpour of grace.

    Thus, in the mystic journey, striving and letting go are not opposites but two parts of the same dance. We strive, knowing we cannot ‘make it happen,’ but in doing so, we prepare the ground for the possibility of grace.

    The beautiful metaphor of becoming “accident-prone” weaves it into the ongoing theme of striving without attachment. It acknowledges the value of practice, even when we know the ego cannot reach enlightenment directly, and creates a sense of the mystical unfolding that happens when conditions are right.

    The mystic experience is ultimately about recognizing that what we seek has always been here, and in this recognition, the striving itself becomes a form of grace.

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  • The Ego’s Journey from Separation to Enlightenment: A Union of Sufi, Buddhist, and Hindu Wisdom

    The Ego’s Journey from Separation to Enlightenment: A Union of Sufi, Buddhist, and Hindu Wisdom

    There is a moon that rises every night, a silent witness to the sun’s endless light. And yet, the moon itself knows no radiance, no brilliance of its own. It is only when the sun kisses its surface, that it shines, softly, luminously, reflecting a borrowed light. The moon is not the light, but through it, light is made visible.

    So too is the ego, that fragile vessel we cling to, believing it to be the source of our being. It moves through the world like the moon through the night, often unaware that it is not the origin of its own light. The ego believes itself sovereign, a solitary entity, and so it knocks at the gates of heaven. “It is I,” it says. “It is I, Lord.” But the voice from within replies, “I do not know you.”

    This exchange repeats in its cyclical fashion, a dance of self and selfhood, of claiming and denial, much like the phases of the moon—sometimes full with pride, sometimes waning in despair. Yet still, the light of the divine waits, unwavering, patient as the sun.

    And then, in a moment that cannot be forced, cannot be grasped, the ego begins to see the truth of its existence. It begins to understand the quiet grace of reflection. No longer does it knock at heaven’s door saying, “It is I.” Instead, it whispers, “It is Thee.” Not a cry of self, but a dissolution of self. “It is Thee, Lord.”

    And the door, which had remained closed to the insistence of the separate self, swings open. The voice within responds, “Welcome home.” For in that moment, the ego no longer stands apart. It has realized its true nature. It is no longer the moon, claiming a light it cannot possess. It has become the mirror, the perfect reflection of that which has always been.

    The old Sufi story of the ego’s journey, of its many attempts and its ultimate awakening, is not bound by any single tradition. It echoes through the teachings of the Buddha, who saw the ego as an illusion, a fleeting cloud that masks the vast sky of mind. It resonates with the Hindu wisdom that declares Atman is Brahman, that the self, when truly known, is not separate from the vast, eternal presence of the divine.

    When the ego comes to that door again, no longer clinging to its smallness, no longer insisting on its separateness, it is the same realization the Upanishads speak of—Tat Tvam Asi—You are That. It is the same grace that permeates the silence of the Sufis, the same light that breaks through the illusions of the mind in every tradition.

    And so, the ego, having traveled through the long night of its own illusions, finally sees the sun. It sees that it was never the source of light, but always the recipient. It sees that what it once called “I” is nothing but a reflection of “Thee.”

    In this union, in this homecoming, the ego dissolves like the moon fading at dawn. The self returns to the Self. The individual, once lost in its sense of separateness, is welcomed into the infinite. It is no longer the journey of ego toward enlightenment, but the realization that enlightenment was always there, waiting, shining patiently like the sun.

    The moon, now quiet and full of grace, no longer claims its own light. It simply reflects, perfectly, humbly, the light of the sun. And in that reflection, in that quiet surrender, it becomes one with the light itself. Welcome home, the divine says, and the journey is complete.

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  • Experiencing True Worship: Unity with Christ as Our Foundation

    Rediscovering the Heart of Worship: Embracing Christ Within

    In John 4:23, Jesus reveals a profound truth about worship: “Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.” This passage invites us to explore a deeper dimension of worship that transcends mere ritual and formality.

    Jesus emphasizes that true worship involves more than external practices; it requires a heartfelt connection with God. This concept resonates with the biblical idea of being united with Christ. In John 15:4, Jesus says, “Remain in me, as I also remain in you.” This call to remain in Christ highlights the intimate relationship we are invited to cultivate—one where our very essence is realized as being one with His.

    The Apostle Paul further illuminates this in Galatians 2:20: “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.” This verse underscores the idea that our true self is united with the truth of Christ’s divine presence. When we understand that Christ lives in us, our worship naturally springs from this profound union.

    True worship, therefore, emerges from recognizing this deep spiritual connection. It’s not just about performing rituals or following traditions, but about being in a state of communion with God—experiencing His Spirit within us. This inner communion is reflected in our outward expressions of faith, such as prayer, worship, and service. As we live out our faith, let us remember that our worship flows from this inner oneness with Christ, embodying and expressing the Spirit of God and the truth of Jesus. Remember, the Kingdom of God is within us, and so true worship starts from within and is lived out through our actions.

    Practical Steps for Cultivating a Deeper Mystical Experience

    To cultivate a more profound mystical experience of the divine within, consider the following practical suggestions:

    • Engage in contemplative prayer, as modeled by St. John of the Cross, to deepen your awareness of God’s presence. Allow yourself moments of silence and stillness to listen to the inner voice of the Spirit.
    • Set aside time each day for reflection on Scripture and spiritual writings. Meditate on passages that speak to the intimate relationship between Christ and the believer, such as John 15:4 and Galatians 2:20.
    • Incorporate spiritual practices like fasting, journaling, or retreats to create space for experiencing God more deeply. These practices can help quiet the mind and open the heart to divine communion.
    • Join or form a group of like-minded believers who are also interested in exploring deeper spiritual experiences. Sharing insights and experiences can enhance your understanding and commitment to cultivating this inner connection with Christ.

    By incorporating these practices, you can foster a more profound experience of divine presence and deepen your sense of unity with Christ.

    Reflective Questions:

    • How does understanding worship as a deep, personal communion with Christ change your perspective on your daily practices of faith?
    • In what ways can you cultivate a more intimate relationship with Jesus in your prayer and worship time?
    • How can the recognition of Christ living within you transform your approach to worship and spiritual growth?
    • What are some ways you can integrate this inner spiritual connection with your external expressions of faith and service?

    I invite you to share your thoughts, experiences, or any questions you may have in the comments section below. Let’s explore this journey of deeper worship and unity with Christ together.

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  • Interview with St. John of the Cross: A Reader’s Digest Version of the Dark Night of the Soul

    Jesus: John, you’ve experienced profound spiritual trials. Can you describe what you mean by the “dark night of the soul”?

    John: Certainly, Lord. The “dark night” is a period of intense spiritual desolation, where one feels abandoned by God. It’s a time when familiar comforts and spiritual joys vanish, leaving the soul in profound emptiness and darkness.

    Jesus: How does this darkness begin?

    John: It begins with the purging of the senses. What once brought spiritual consolation becomes dry and void. It’s as if the light of divine presence is suddenly obscured, forcing the soul to rely solely on faith.

    Jesus: What purpose does this serve?

    John: This dark night is a necessary purification. By stripping away attachments and superficial consolations, the soul is prepared for a deeper union with You. It’s a journey through suffering to achieve spiritual maturity and intimacy with the divine.

    Jesus: How did you endure this period of suffering?

    John: By surrendering to Your will, Lord. Embracing the darkness with patience and trust, knowing it was Your hand guiding me even when I couldn’t feel it. Through this, I learned to let go of my ego and self-reliance.

    Jesus: What emerges from the other side of this night?

    John: A profound transformation. The soul emerges purified, enlightened, and deeply united with You. It’s a resurrection from spiritual death to new life, where the soul now abides in divine love and wisdom.

    Jesus: How would you comfort those currently in their dark night?

    John: I would tell them to persevere in faith and trust. The darkness is not abandonment but preparation. Hold fast to the belief that this suffering is a path to greater union with God. It’s a sacred journey, leading to the divine light beyond the darkness.

    Jesus: Thank you, John. Your words bring hope to many.

    John: Thank You, Lord, for guiding me through the darkness into Your eternal light.

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