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  • The Sacred Shift: From Seeking to Being

    Following the path of meditation can feel like a gradual unraveling of the known—a shedding of what we once held onto, leading us into the mystery of contemplation. As I continue reflecting on the works of St. John of the Cross, this sacred shift from meditation into contemplation becomes clearer. It is not a step we take with effort but a grace that gently unfolds when the time is right.

    St. John speaks of this transition as a call to surrender, but it is not the kind of surrender we can will into existence. Instead, it is a letting go that happens when we stop striving, when we allow ourselves to simply rest in the presence of the Divine. This is where the familiar practices of meditation—focused attention, mental inquiry, or breath awareness—fall away, giving space for something more profound to emerge.

    Today, I felt this shift more deeply, not as an intellectual understanding, but as a living experience. The pratyayas—the thoughts, sensations, and memories that rise and fall—became like whispers, their pull softening in the presence of curiosity. This curiosity is not the kind that seeks answers, but one that witnesses, without needing anything to happen. In that gentle witnessing, something new emerged: a spaciousness, a quiet stillness that felt like home.

    This experience is not unique to Christian mysticism. In Advaita Vedanta, the practice of self-inquiry often begins with a repetitive questioning—”Who am I?”—an active search for truth. But, as with St. John’s teachings, there comes a time when even the inquiry must dissolve into silence. The seeker steps back, not into a place of knowing, but into a place of being. In that being, all effort falls away, and we are left with the pristine awareness that has always been there.

    In silence, love calls,

    No longer through words or thought,

    But in quiet grace.

    This is the threshold between seeking and being, a place where the Divine does its quiet work in us. It is no longer about striving or yearning for a deeper experience; it is about trusting in the unfolding of love, which asks only that we rest in its presence.

    For those of us on this journey, may we continue to trust this sacred shift—moving from meditation into contemplation, from seeking into being. In this silent surrender, we come closer to the essence of who we truly are.

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  • Into the Mystic: The Journey from Meditation to Contemplation

    As I re-read the works of St. John of the Cross, I have become more attuned to the threshold of transition—the dryness and emptiness that so often precede the invitation to move from meditation into contemplation. This is not unique to St. John; it is something pointed to by many of the great teachers. Whether it’s Namkhai Norbu, Ramana Maharshi, Thich Nhat Hanh, the Dalai Lama, or Orgyen Chowang in Pristine Mind, they all plant the seeds of meditative absorption, which only take root when the time is right. Now, it seems, those seeds are beginning to bloom, not as intellectual concepts, but as a living, unfolding experience.

    Today, I found myself drawn into this quiet transformation. As I lay in stillness, the pratyayas—those passing thoughts, sensations, and memories—began to rise and fall, like waves on a distant shore. Curiosity, that soft and patient witness, guided me deeper, not into understanding but into presence.

    The breath came of its own accord, a deep release from somewhere beyond my conscious will, as if the body itself knew what needed to unfold. And then, an awareness—a spaciousness—arose. It was not something I had summoned, nor could I hold it in place. It was simply there, naked and pure, like a clear blue sky.

    St. John of the Cross speaks of this as a kind of surrender, but not the kind we can choose. It is a grace bestowed, not earned. In the stillness, I realized that my role was not to force this shift but to allow it to happen. To remain as the observer, the witness, as the Divine unfolded in its own time.

    What struck me most deeply was the paradox of this surrender. The very act of trying to let go becomes an obstacle. Instead, it is curiosity that opens the door to pure awareness—curiosity that has no desire, no need for something to happen, but simply observes what is.

    Today, in this unfolding, I realized that even the longing for deeper experience can become a barrier. The path is not one of striving but of witnessing. And in that witness, the Divine does its quiet work, purifying what needs to be released, and bringing us ever closer to the essence of who we truly are.

    As I reflect on my own journey today, it is my hope, and the shared intention (Sankalpa) behind all of this work, that by sharing these reflections, insights, and experiences, they may serve as a guide, a comfort, or a spark of inspiration to those who come across them.

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    Book Recommendation: St. John of the Cross, Dark Night of the Soul

    Dark Night of the Soul by St. John of the Cross is a spiritual masterpiece that explores the transformative power of suffering and the journey toward union with the Divine. This work describes the profound spiritual experience of being stripped of all attachments, both inner and outer, as a necessary process for purification and deeper connection with God. For those experiencing a time of spiritual dryness or emptiness, St. John’s words offer hope and guidance through the darkness, illuminating the path to deeper faith and surrender. The Dark Night is not a time of despair, but of ultimate transformation, where we are invited to let go of our limited understanding and trust in the unfolding of the Divine. This book serves as a timeless companion for anyone navigating the challenges of the contemplative path, especially those who feel drawn to the shift from meditation to deeper contemplation.

    Book Recommendation: Orgyen Chowang, Our Pristine Mind

    In The Pristine Mind, Orgyen Chowang offers profound teachings on accessing our natural state of mind—a state of clarity, openness, and peace. He draws from the Dzogchen tradition, emphasizing that our true nature is already pure and perfect, and that through practice, we can return to this unconditioned state. For those on a contemplative journey, Chowang’s words provide a practical path for moving beyond mental noise and distractions, guiding us back to the inherent stillness of the mind. This book is especially helpful for those who wish to deepen their meditation practice or shift from intellectual understanding to living experience. The Pristine Mind invites readers to discover the profound joy and serenity that arises when we rest in the awareness of our true nature.



  • From Suffering to Compassion: Transforming Life with ME/CFS

    From Suffering to Compassion: Transforming Life with ME/CFS

    Living with chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS) often feels like carrying an invisible weight that never goes away. The exhaustion is far beyond ordinary tiredness, permeating not just the body but the mind and heart as well. For many of us, this illness can feel like a curse, a complete derailment of life’s trajectory. Yet, over the years, I’ve come to see it also as a strange and unexpected blessing—one that has thrown me deeper into spiritual practice, into moments of stillness and contemplation I might not have otherwise known.

    At its worst, the illness can leave me in bed, lights off, no sound, in a state of complete sensory deprivation. And it is in these moments, when there is nothing to distract me from my thoughts, that I’ve had to learn how to truly be alone. Learning to witness my reactions, cultivating equanimity, and practicing calm-abiding meditation have become vital companions on this journey. For many years, I focused on the Tibetan practice of Samatha, or calm-abiding meditation, as well as Vipassana, which allows for a deep awareness of the present moment. Sitting in stillness, aware of whatever calm I could find within, helped me cultivate equanimity—though it remains a practice I still have much to learn from.

    But there was another essential practice that transformed how I related to my suffering. The practice of Metta—or loving-kindness—invites us to take our own pain and suffering and recognize that in this vast world, we are not alone in what we feel. When my illness has been most acute, whether through mental anguish or physical symptoms, I’ve practiced thinking: In the same way that I am experiencing this illness, this suffering, this pain, there are others in the world who experience this too. And then, from the heart, I offer the prayer: May I, and all beings, be free from this suffering and its causes.

    This simple yet profound shift in perspective allowed me to transform my experience from one of isolation and misery into a practice of compassion. Instead of being stuck in my own pain, it became a way to benefit others by cultivating loving-kindness for all those who suffer. In this way, even my most difficult experiences became part of my spiritual path. ME/CFS was no longer just an illness—it was an opportunity to deepen my compassion, both for myself and for others.

    Of course, this hasn’t been an overnight transformation. It took many years of spiritual study and practice, drawing from teachings like the Four Noble Truths of the Buddha, the Noble Eightfold Path, and eventually the teachings of Advaita Vedanta. Through these teachings, I came to recognize the fluctuations of the mind, or vrittis, and learned to observe the content of my thoughts—pratyayas—without identifying with them. This practice of witnessing the mind has allowed me to find peace in the midst of the storm, much like the Dark Night of the Soul described by St. John of the Cross.

    For me, it has felt less like a dark night and more like twenty years of spiritual darkness, but nonetheless, this darkness has also been a teacher. Learning to be present with my suffering, rather than resisting it, has become an integral part of my life with ME/CFS. And while the illness has forced me to withdraw from many aspects of life, it has also drawn me into the heart of spiritual practice.

    To anyone living with this illness, or any chronic illness, I offer this: it’s okay to feel overwhelmed by the weight of it all. It’s okay to grieve the life you once had or the future you imagined. But there are also practices—like Metta, calm-abiding meditation, and witnessing the mind—that can transform this suffering into something that nourishes not only your soul but the souls of others as well.

    May you, and all beings, be free from suffering and its causes. May this invisible weight become a doorway into the mystic, where even in solitude, you find that you are never truly alone.

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  • Ramayana No. 9: The Dark Night and the Hero’s Journey

    As I delve deeper into the Ramayana, the timeless story continues to reveal layers of wisdom that resonate across spiritual traditions and cultures. One striking parallel that emerges is the connection between the tale of Manthara and the serpent in the Genesis story, both of which serve as catalysts for the hero’s journey—necessary agents of disruption that propel the protagonists from the comfort of innocence into the trials of the world.

    Manthara, like the serpent, whispers deceit into the ears of the righteous, setting off a chain of events that lead to exile, struggle, and ultimately, transformation. In both stories, this act of deception might be viewed as evil, but it is crucial for the unfolding of a greater destiny. Without the fall from Eden, there would be no journey toward redemption. Without Manthara’s insidious counsel, there would be no exile for Rama—a journey that would ultimately reveal his true nature and the essence of dharma.

    This motif is echoed in Joseph Campbell’s The Hero’s Journey, where the hero must leave the familiar world and enter a realm of trials and challenges, often descending into a figurative or literal underworld. It is here, in the depths of darkness, that the hero faces the ultimate test, encountering both inner and outer demons. The journey is perilous, but it is also where the hero discovers their true strength and purpose.

    In the Christian tradition, St. John of the Cross articulated a similar experience in his concept of the Dark Night of the Soul. This dark night is a period of profound spiritual desolation, where the soul feels abandoned, stripped of all earthly and spiritual comforts. Yet, this is not a sign of divine punishment, but rather an essential phase of purification. It is in this crucible of suffering that the soul is refined, prepared for a deeper union with the Divine.

    Rama’s exile in the Ramayana can be seen as his own Dark Night of the Soul, a necessary period of trial and suffering that strips him of his royal status and forces him to confront the raw realities of life. Through this journey, Rama evolves from a prince into an embodiment of dharma, a being whose actions reflect the divine order of the universe.

    This theme of transformation through trial is universal. It speaks to the experience of every soul that seeks to journey from ignorance to wisdom, from ego to enlightenment. Whether it is Adam and Eve expelled from Eden, Rama exiled from Ayodhya, or a soul passing through the Dark Night, the path is one of descent before ascent, of loss before the ultimate gain of spiritual realization.

    As we contemplate these stories, we are invited to see our own lives in their light. The challenges we face, the moments of darkness, are not mere accidents but are woven into the fabric of our spiritual journey. They are the trials that test our resolve, refine our character, and lead us closer to the Divine.

    In this light, the whispers of Manthara, the serpent’s temptation, or the dark nights we endure are not just obstacles; they are invitations—calls to embark on the hero’s journey, to walk the path that leads to a higher truth, and to become more fully who we are meant to be.

    May we find strength and inspiration in these stories, knowing that every trial we face is a step on the path to wisdom, compassion, and ultimately, to the realization of our divine nature.

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    You can explore this epic story in the edition of the Ramayana used in this series, written by Valmiki and translated by Suparna Ghosh, on Amazon here

    Alternatively, you can choose from several other versions and translations that are available. Including the William Buck translation available as an abridged audiobook on Audible, narrated by Ram Dass
    here

  • Journeying Through “The Dark Night of the Soul”: Embracing Spiritual Purification

    Review of Chapters 1-6 with Personal Reflections and Contemplative Insights

    In St. John of the Cross’s timeless masterpiece, “The Dark Night of the Soul,” he intricately details the soul’s profound journey towards spiritual union with the divine. Each chapter unveils layers of purification and surrender, guiding us through the depths of spiritual transformation.

    Chapter 1: The Soul’s Longing

    Chapter 1 begins with a poignant exploration of the soul’s yearning for divine connection. St. John describes how this longing initiates the soul’s journey through darkness and detachment from earthly desires. Personally, I resonate deeply with this chapter as it mirrors my own quest for deeper spiritual fulfillment amidst life’s challenges.

    Chapter 2: Detachment from Earthly Desires

    In Chapter 2, St. John delves into the dark night of the senses, where the soul undergoes purification from sensory attachments. This resonates with my journey of letting go of material expectations due to chronic fatigue syndrome, guiding me to embrace spiritual detachment as a path to inner peace.

    Chapter 3: Purification of the Spirit

    The dark night of the spirit unfolds in Chapter 3, where St. John explores the soul’s purification at its deepest level. This chapter teaches me the profound art of surrender, where I’m learning to release attachments and find solace in divine presence amidst life’s uncertainties.

    Chapter 4: Surrendering to Divine Transformation

    Chapter 4 amplifies the soul’s journey through surrender, where St. John emphasizes letting go of spiritual consolations for a deeper union with God. This chapter inspires me to embrace a profound level of surrender, trusting in divine guidance as I navigate life’s challenges and joys.

    Chapter 5: Awakening to Divine Love

    In Chapter 5, St. John illuminates the soul’s awakening to divine love through complete purification and detachment. This chapter encourages me to deepen my awareness of the divine presence in every moment, cultivating a profound sense of inner peace and spiritual fulfillment.

    Chapter 6: Recognizing the Divine in All

    Finally, Chapter 6 culminates in the soul’s recognition of the divine presence in all aspects of existence. Inspired by Jesus’ teachings on spiritual perception, this chapter guides me towards seeing God in everyone and everything, fostering a transformative journey of spiritual growth and awakening.

    Reflective Questions for Contemplation:

    1.  How does the concept of surrender resonate with your own spiritual journey?

    2.  In what ways can detachment from earthly desires deepen your sense of inner peace?

    3.  How do you currently perceive the divine presence in your daily life and interactions?

    4.  What practices or teachings inspire you to embrace spiritual growth and union with the divine?

    Feel free to share your reflections, insights, or experiences in the comments below. Let’s embark on this journey of spiritual exploration together!

    If you’re interested in learning more about this book, follow this link below to the Amazon website.

    This blog post integrates St. John of the Cross’s teachings with personal reflections and invites readers to engage in contemplation and discussion. As we navigate our spiritual paths, may we find inspiration and guidance in embracing deeper levels of surrender, purification, and divine union.

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  • Poem: Solitude and the Key

    Reflections on Chronic Fatigue Syndrome aka ME/CFS

    Solitude and the Key In silence, I find a refuge from the chaos of my mind. In the tender embrace of the night, I travel inward for comfort and grace.

    Chronic fatigue, my silent companion, taught me the art of patient resignation. In the depths of silence I carefully kept my key, where I repaired. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes of doubt, I embrace the night without shouting.

    For in the embrace of solitude I discern the lessons of the soul and long to learn them. In this quiet refuge, I find strength again, and my spirit is full.

    With every gentle breath and careful sigh, I recapture my light beneath the sky. So I rest in my lonely cocoon, gathering spoons by moonlight. Learning to dance with shadow and light, embracing the journey, embracing the night.

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  • Poem: Solitude and Spoons

    Finding Solace in Solitude: A Poem for Our ME/CFS Journey

    In the quiet of solitude, I find,
    A refuge from the chaos of the mind.
    Amidst the dark night’s gentle embrace,
    I journey inward, seeking solace and grace.

    Chronic Fatigue, my silent companion,
    Teaches me the art of patient abandon.
    To conserve my spoons with mindful care,
    In the depths of stillness, I repair.

    Like a phoenix rising from ashes of doubt,
    I embrace the dark night, without a shout.
    For in solitude’s embrace, I discern,
    The lessons of the soul, I eagerly learn.

    In this sacred space of quiet retreat,
    I find strength anew, my spirit replete.
    With each tender breath and mindful sigh,
    I reclaim my light beneath the sky.

    So here I rest, in solitude’s cocoon,
    Gathering spoons beneath the silver moon.
    Learning to dance with shadows and light,
    Embracing the journey, embracing the night.

    🙏🕊️🙏

  • Interview with St. John of the Cross: A Reader’s Digest Version of the Dark Night of the Soul

    Jesus: John, you’ve experienced profound spiritual trials. Can you describe what you mean by the “dark night of the soul”?

    John: Certainly, Lord. The “dark night” is a period of intense spiritual desolation, where one feels abandoned by God. It’s a time when familiar comforts and spiritual joys vanish, leaving the soul in profound emptiness and darkness.

    Jesus: How does this darkness begin?

    John: It begins with the purging of the senses. What once brought spiritual consolation becomes dry and void. It’s as if the light of divine presence is suddenly obscured, forcing the soul to rely solely on faith.

    Jesus: What purpose does this serve?

    John: This dark night is a necessary purification. By stripping away attachments and superficial consolations, the soul is prepared for a deeper union with You. It’s a journey through suffering to achieve spiritual maturity and intimacy with the divine.

    Jesus: How did you endure this period of suffering?

    John: By surrendering to Your will, Lord. Embracing the darkness with patience and trust, knowing it was Your hand guiding me even when I couldn’t feel it. Through this, I learned to let go of my ego and self-reliance.

    Jesus: What emerges from the other side of this night?

    John: A profound transformation. The soul emerges purified, enlightened, and deeply united with You. It’s a resurrection from spiritual death to new life, where the soul now abides in divine love and wisdom.

    Jesus: How would you comfort those currently in their dark night?

    John: I would tell them to persevere in faith and trust. The darkness is not abandonment but preparation. Hold fast to the belief that this suffering is a path to greater union with God. It’s a sacred journey, leading to the divine light beyond the darkness.

    Jesus: Thank you, John. Your words bring hope to many.

    John: Thank You, Lord, for guiding me through the darkness into Your eternal light.

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